SANA: Epilogue

Sabi nila, hindi masamang mangarap. pero, ano nga ba ang pangarap? Bakit tila'y napakahaalaga ito kahit kanino man? Bakit lahat gagawin makuha lang ito? Ikaw ano ba ang pinapangarap mo? Gagawin mo ba lahat makuha lang ito?

Ako si Jenny, bata pa lang ako, gusto ko na maging abogado. I want to be just like my dad, magaling matalino at tanyag.

pero,

Paano ko makakamit ang pangarap ko, kung para sa kanila second best lang ako. Always next to my Ninong Jaime's son, bestfriend ng papa ko. Lagi nalang ako pangalawa kay Jake.

Nakaka-inis! baakit siya na lang palagi ang panalo? Mula pagkabata, I'm always the second best to him. Hmp! Kaya mula nun, prinamis ko na sa sarili ko, ako naman ang mananalo, I'm going to be the one on top now. And I would do everything to be there. No matter what happens. And no matter what it takes me to be there...

They say, the best gift a child could give to their parents is an achievement to anything. May it be to academics or sports, and maybe on talents and skills will do.

But what if, you're not enough to make them happy? Would you do everything to be appreciated? Would you do all the sacrifices?

"Simple lang naman pangaarap ko eh! Ang maging proud lang sakin ang parents ko."

I am Jake, bunso sa tatlong anak ni Atty. Jaime at Atty. Felly Flores. Dalawa sa pinaka kilala at syempre most respected lawyers in town. And ofcourse one of the busiest too. Well, I couldn't blame them, maging sikat ba naman na mga attorneys diba? Syempre kaliwa't kanang customers and mawawala ba ang here and there na court hearings. Pareho na ring professional ang kuya at ate ko. Si kuya CPA na at nagtatrabaho na sa states. Si ate naman, magsisimula na sa pagpractice ng Law. Kaka-pass lang niya sa BAR Exams. And guess what topnatcher pa sya! Lupet diba? Eh ako? Ano natira sakin edi:

FAMOUS PARENTS + SUCCESSFUL bro and sis = HIGH EXPECTATION.

Ayun! Syempre lagi talaga akong ikinukumpara sakanila. Pareho ba naman with honors nang grumadweyt tapos dami pang achievements. LUPEEEEEEEEET! Ang hirap maging ako! Ang dami kong dapat patunayan! Daming kelangang pag-Excelan, all my life, I have to be the best. Simple lang naman pangarap ko eh. Maging proud lanag sila sakin kahit one time lang! I've done everything . I've been the best in everything. But, I guess it's not enough for them. Parating kulang, parating "Is that all you can do?". I guess this is my fate. Kahit nga sa katangi-tanging babaeng minamahal ko. I'm not good enough. Bata pa lang kami inis na siya sakin. Di ko alam everytime pa lang pinipilit kong maging proud sakin sila mama at papa, mas lalo siyang naiinis sakin. Di ko alam kung bakit at kung paano. Tanging alam ko lang, galit na galit siya sakin. She's Jenny. Kababata ko. Tanging babaeng minamahal ko :(.

1-BSBIOLOGY-A 08'09

1 thing I won't forget
Being with the pipz' that was Oh! so great.
Strangers whom I've met
Back on June 10, 2008

Intelligent people,I thought they were
On being their classmate, I was afraid ng ober ober
Looking at their faces, Oh how serious these guys could be
Only to find out, mga bigaers man sila and always jolly.

Gosh nakuratan ko
Yaga yaga man gali ang classmates ko
Aysus nalang gid tana
kung upod mo sila pirti ka gid kasadya

dedicated to my ex-classmates:

BSBIOLOGY-1 batch 2008-2009

miss you guys:)

A Poem for Mama

In memory of the late

Febe E. Fegarido

(February 8, 1968-April 24,2009)

You are the best
You are the greatest
Nine months you carried me in your womb
Though having me will lead you to your tomb

You've done your best in giving me everything
But what i do is to leave you crying
You only want the best for me
But, "strict supervision" that's what i only see

Many tears have fallen in your eyes 'coz of me
I know i'm the worst example, on how a child should be
Thank you so much for untiring love and understanding
Although i've been causing your deep pain and suffering

I'm sorry mama for all the bad things that i've done
I'm sorry i've never shown you how much i love you before you were gone
Mama i'm missin' you so much
I will always remember you and your loving touch

I know wherever you ar, you're happy there
Happy together with our father dear
I know you're resting happily there
Rest in peace my mama, the best mom ever


BY:
PHILIP NIXON E. FEGARIDO

miss you so much ma.. I ♥ you..

THE AUTHOR: introductory post

Before, I planned to start blogging as soon as I have my own laptop. Well, now that I own a laptop, I decided to live up my passion, EXPRESSING MYSELF (through my works e.g. poems,stories etc.). Now, I can show the world how I feel and what am I thinking.

As a head start, I would like to tell you something about myself. Well, I'm Philip Nixon Enrique-Fegarido, 18 years of age and currently a college freshman from Notre Dame of Tacurong College (not quite a known school in Sultan Kudarat, Mindanao), and I'm taking up BS Accountancy. You might be asking why an eighteen year old like still is a freshman, well, here's why, I was a shifter, I' came from University of Southern Mindanao and there I took up BS Biology, pre-MED. Unfortunately, I failed to meet the requirement of the school, so In was forced to transfer to my current school. Maybe I am really not for my first course. I was destined to have a suffix of ",CPA" not ",MD".

For my loves:

• I ♥ to write. (I love to write everything, my feelings, my memories, everything except, lecture notes.)
• I ♥ to have fun. (Who wouldn't want to have fun?)
• I ♥ cracking jokes and make someone laugh. (Laughter is music in my ears.)
• I ♥ being with my friends. (I treat all my friends as my very own family)
• Finally, I love bringing joy in others' lives. (That's because my life is full of drama. I don't want to add more sadness in it.)

For my hates:

• I hate fakers. (I'm a genuine person, so fakes? total no no.)
• I hate promise-breakers. (If you promise, do it. PROMISES are NOT known to be broken)
• I hate false-hope givers. (Don't let someone hope for something impossible to happen)
• I hate two-timers. (Don't be like my father, our lives became miserable because of what he has done.)
• Finally, I hate superficial persons. (I believe real beauty is skin deep.)

I guess I've shared enough.

LOVE ME OR HATE ME, I DON'T CARE!